What a useless character I have, damn.......
First I left my old job so I could have more time to draw as I like.
Buuuuut that worked just the opposite way!
The first few days I told to myself "Ok. I'm not drawing but it's just that I need a break first."
Than that days became weeks...!!!!!
I've started the same image for more than 10times. And than just stared at it from time to time but didn't pay attention long enough to grab a pencil.
Weeks passed and gradually my sleeping hours shifted like hell. I started to wake up at 1600-1800 and felt like the day ended and nothing could be done. So I postponed starting any thing new to the nextday.

After a couple of months I decided that I must start a new job to put my life in order so I'd have time to do something for myself & my art.

Now I've been working in this job 4 about 2 months. I'm already complaining that the work takes all my time'n I can't find time to draw


Thats bullshit. I AM SO LAZY THAT I COULDN'T DO A REAL SHIT IF I HAD A MILLION YEARS TO LIVE.
Sorry m8s. I'm just trying a new way of putting myself under pressure by humiliating myself.

7 DAYS TO GOOOOOOOOOOOOOO


I am completing my military service next week. What a long/neverending 6 months with 22 new solid illustrations


Hope to be back after Safak

I'll be joining the army next week. My hair is gone now and I feel kinda wierd. I've had long hair for more than 13 years and its is strange to move your head without your hair coming to your face
Untill last week I thought I was having a bad life. I even frozen school for the military duty to escape from everything but now....
I was wrong. Now my life is much worse My most beloved one, my best friend and support, my father died last week......
I donno.... This is strange. And... Donno.
Whatever to all of you if I didn't do anything I promissed to do... sorry.
Especially ~JaycenWise... sorry man I really couldn't.

I'll be around for another week but I'll be spending most my time with my sister and mom.
So.... See you all DA family.

tARUM

Ay aksamdan isiktir .........

Hmmm yesterday I've got my military call. I'm still studiying my Phd. and I don't have to attend but I kinda lost my self and even military work seems a holiday. I've been a student for 23 years!!!!!! I'm about to get my Phd. on Aeronautical Engineering and working as a research assistant for 4 years and now I'm confused and donno if this is what I want.
The bad thing is I'm pasifist and anti-militarist!!!!!!!!! But the military duty is a must in my country and every male has to do after leaving school. So to be free and decide for my life I've got to do it
A relatively good thing is that I'll just sit/sleep in an Air Force maintanance base or summer camp and it will be about 5 months but still being a part of an armed force is depressing

So after my return I'll freely choose to be an academist or illustrator which is the best part
Until that I'm working as lazy as I can. So it wouldn't be surprising if any of my work comes late (A special note to my professor )

Sooo;
Ay aksamdan isikdir Yaaylalar Yaylalar Bizim olan asiktir Diloy diloy yaylalar

Uncle Bowie was right... At least for DA. Everyboy is superstar here. We are gods from heaven who are generous enough to share our holly art with the others. Yes thats true, don't be mistaken we are not here to share our work with fellow artist.

You don't see comments as comments, you hear the clap from the audiance only.

You don't see as some fellow artist promoting you, you see it as a worship.

... and those watch thingy. Although DA calls it "friends list", your watchers are your little sheeps and you know that. No need to be sentimental.

You see, when someone your work, you don't just sent a note, you write a small thanks in his/her main page with the link to your work. ehoahaaaooa clever aye. Hmmm... but you are never sentimental, are you????
You never say "Hmm here I am in a fellow artists main page, letme look at his gallery, maybe I'd like his/her also...” You just leave a sign in his/her page that you are so better than him/her that you are being faved or watched.

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Yea that’s true. I’ve been watching all these for sometime.
When I see a good or bad (generally both) thing in a work, I write a comment.
If I find the artist good enough to be promoted I give and if I find his/her works somewhat familiar I add him/her to the friends list.
Then I see them coming to my page... Just for that link and a “thank you”. You see; I can easily detect their intentions. Someone visits your page but none of your work has been viewed. You know that they didn’t spend more than a second in the page and never looked around.

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