What a useless character I have, damn.......
First I left my old job so I could have more time to draw as I like.
Buuuuut that worked just the opposite way!
The first few days I told to myself "Ok. I'm not drawing but it's just that I need a break first."
Than that days became weeks...!!!!!
I've started the same image for more than 10times. And than just stared at it from time to time but didn't pay attention long enough to grab a pencil.
Weeks passed and gradually my sleeping hours shifted like hell. I started to wake up at 1600-1800 and felt like the day ended and nothing could be done. So I postponed starting any thing new to the nextday.

After a couple of months I decided that I must start a new job to put my life in order so I'd have time to do something for myself & my art.

Now I've been working in this job 4 about 2 months. I'm already complaining that the work takes all my time'n I can't find time to draw


Thats bullshit. I AM SO LAZY THAT I COULDN'T DO A REAL SHIT IF I HAD A MILLION YEARS TO LIVE.
Sorry m8s. I'm just trying a new way of putting myself under pressure by humiliating myself.